sleepy sleepy.

if ure reading this means i might already be dead asleep. so dramatic. like suicide note. i really couldnt sleep last nite. like really really. i was rolling rolling..yes rolling is the best term i can think of now. hahaha. i woke up to on the aircond when it got too hot. then i woke up again to read twilight. then i woke up to turn off the aircond when it got too cold. hahaha. shit la. dunno whether i really slept anot. dunno wat to blame already =/ haha.

wei sundae's cheaper 1 buck =D haha..this is my buddy iain and he belanja me strawberry sundae lol. must at least put picture la rite since he belanja me. hahaha. =) quick quick the promotion ends on this sunday. haha. i only ate sundae k nothing else..since ppl are saying i eat too much mcdonalds. hahaha.

so yesterday ah toh's bday..went talipon la if u could see. lol. no more pics d la..all i posted d. all wif evonne...so evonne..tau buat la. hahaha. =P. quite shiok la..sure shiok la see him like dat lol.
hahaha. and i shall post this video. just for fun. =) lol.

nah show u my chem lecturer i hate so much. cause he hates me too. hahaha. stupid mr lim.lol.

him - mr lim!(referring to me la) can u please respect me. we share the same surname ok. we are from the same family. please show some respect.

hahaha. bisen. i hate him.

my first birdy! lol. kah hoo taught me another thing. wonder how many things of these lil tricks he noes to do. wanted to give hayden wan hahaha..manatau she ponteng. lol. cis. hahaha.

my new compilation! to listen on the way to college...lol. backstreet boys - greatest hits. throw in my favourite bsb songs and walaa a cd. hahaha. emo times require emo cds. hahaha. backstreet boy it is! gone la..songs like 'quit playing games wif my heart' hahaha..or or 'shape of my heart' or or ' all i have to give' or or ' i'll never break your heart' LOL. classic. hahaha.

last wednesday. a phone conversation.

Justin- HELOOOOOO!
Eric Lim Chee Keong- who is this?
Justin- this is pizza hut delivery. is this mrrr eric lim?
Eric Lim Chee Keong- yes. thats me.
Justin-ok sir..we would just like to confirm ur order of 3 large pizza that u made few minutes ago.
Eric Lim Chee Keong- seriously?
Justin- HAHAHA. GOTCHAA.

it was totally spontaneous and i couldnt stop laughing when i heard his panic voice asking 'seriously?'. hahaha. yesterday. another prank call. to the same person. hahahaha. this time recorded on phone. hahahahaha. buttt small problem. i need a amr to mp3 converter b4 i can post it up. cannot find laaa. so any help is really really appreciated. cant wait for everyone to hear it. hahahaha. sorry man eric. u noe i still love u. hahahaha.

in the month of november, the highest number of visits was during this post. hahaha. i haf no idea whyyy. doesnt make any sense at all cause it was a short post. maybe it was because 'damnn im cute'. hahaha. maybe it was because of the personal stuff there. but it was personal and for her. anywayy lol. post again. hope it gets that many visits again la. hahahaha. sick.

first it starts by you saying 'oo, shes pretty cute.' pretty cute as in quite cute or pretty AND cute? kinda work both ways hahaha. so u are eager to noe her, so u find some hidden courage someday and just start talking to her. she tells u her name but u are so hypnotized u ask ur buddy just to confirm it. next thing u noe..its a name u'll never forget. you get closer to her and give her a nickname so ppl wont realise ure talking bout her. u look forward to classes wif her so u can talk to her and make her laugh. her smile is so pretty u'll do about anything just to make her happy. then u start to realise that her absence makes u feel like there is a hollow gap in ur lonely heart. u cant stop thinking bout her, and ure so eager to noe so much more bout her..if possible everything about her. her family, her hobby and every single interesting fact. u find that shes easily the most interesting girl u ever met, she makes u laugh and doesnt mind talking about football wif u. next thing u noe that u cant deny ur feelings for her no matter how much ppl tease u about it and even if u refuse to admit it. u cant stop talking bout her when ure wif frens, and u automatically blush whenever shes near. before u noe it, everyone calls her by the nickname u give her. her bday looms and u plan to buy her present weeks ahead. u go everywhere looking for the album of her favourite band. no matter how many trips it takes, no matter where. u write a nice poem to go along, crossing ur fingers that she'll like the present. then u start to think wat u say to her when u see her other than 'hi' or 'bye'. u think bout everything possible that might just attract her attention. soon everyone noes how u feel and starts teasing u, but would u avoid them teasing and regret later, or find the courage and ignore them even as they laugh at u as u walk up to her. u find every opportunity to see her, on the way to class, while eating lunch, while in class. seeing her smile does make everything worthwhile, even for a second. later she tells u that she needs to tell u something important but not now, wif the 'time not being right'. having experience wif that phrase, u foresee that its gonna be something bad. she might say 'i just wanna be frens', or 'stop liking me' or 1000 other possibilities that might just hurt your lil heart. u write out stuff about her in ur blog, cause u realise it might be the last possible chance for u to open ur heart and pour out ur soul. u start to think wat if things go wrong wif every step forward, u dowan to lose wat u have now. but wat if more is wat u want? is it all worthwhile as u start to think, to feel so down when u dun see her, to have a heart attack when she smiles at u. love knows no boundaries, life is too short to let anything to be in the way of love. u wan to hold her close to u, look into her little eyes, tell her how much she means to u, tell her u wan to be wif her, just to be by her side when the world ends.

sigh..in the end, you noe, its just a heartbreak. pick it up, pick it up.


you doin' that thing you do,
breaking my heart into a million pieces, like you always do.
And you, don't mean to be cruel,
you never even knew about the heartache,
ive been going through.
well I try and try to forget you girl,
but it's just so hard to do,
every time you do that thing you do

cause we, could be happy can't you see,
if you'd only let me be the one to hold you,
and keep you here with me .
Cause it hurts me so just to see you go,
around with someone new.

i would do anything in the world just to see ur pretty smile,
my days become better when i talk to u, even if its for a while.
im going crazy over you, and i cant really explain why.
i dun even noe the reason myself, i just only wish to be 'that guy'.

i think of u all the time it seems,
ure so beautiful when u appear in my dreams.
i'll be there for u no matter how dark or dim.
all i can say is i love you, i sincerely do. signed, justin lim.

justin lim.